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Entries from May 2008

A Quick Update

May 20, 2008 · 3 Comments

Last week I was in Providence, RI where my parents verbally abused each other, embarssed all of us, and hurricaned an entire restaurant/hotel lobby while my sister demanded we put her at the center of the universe. It was, to say the very least, emotionally draining. When I got home I sat in the living room in total silence, for hours. My brother called me today to say “they sucked the life out of the room.” I couldn’t agree more. I did manage to spill a glass of champagne on my stepmother. I had to keep myself from laughing, yet mourning. RIP delicious bubbly.

The weekend prior with my mother for her birthday and mother’s day was lovely. I miss my mother all the time.

Tim is in Chicago for work. Today I ate dinner at the Cheesecake Factory alone. Not sure what that was about. I was shopping and exhausted and the house is empty and it has no food, I guess. If you call martinis dinner, that is.

I’ve been shopping a lot lately. Why is that every shirt looks like pregnancy attire? It’s so impossible to find clothes I like?

In other news, I’m upset with myself for exercising only 2-3 times a week. And we leave for Puerto Rico in 2 days. On the train back from RI I started a packing list, only to be dumbfounded by all the clothes I forgot I have (all sitting in my closet). I am packing my exercise clothes. I just want to workout 4 times a week. 5 would be outstanding, but I’m not pushing it.

Categories: Bitching · Exercise · Fashion · Travel

Return to Bender

May 8, 2008 · 3 Comments

I got home from work at 6pm and inhaled an apple and now I am sipping on an espresso. I’m transitioning to counting points for awhile. It’s been a rough few days.

I toyed with whether or not I’d share this here, I think because in the world of diet blogging, WW isn’t something the hardcore cool kids do. After pondering it for awhile, I realized I don’t give a shit what them bitches think about me anymore.

In 2002 I lost a lot of weight and learned a hellofa alot about healthy eating on Weight Watchers. In fact I will credit WW for (initially) teaching me how to eat right. As time wore on, my WW meetings evolved into discussions about which processed food products would calculate out to less points. Back in 2002, WW did not have its name on brownies and cupcakes and muffins and breads and such — not like they do now (these processed pieces of crap irritate the shit out of me too, but that’s a completely different gripe). At some point it occured to me that losing weight was not about which English muffin is 3.5 points instead of 5. It’s safe to say I slowly grew disenchanted with the program. Or perhaps, I just burnt out on it. I will tell you that towards the end of that run, I felt like WW simply wasn’t enough food. Period. I was a hardcore exerciser then (it’s an easy habit for me to overdue) and I wasn’t eating any of my exercise points. The past few years have taught me how fucking stupid that was. If you are working out like a madwoman, burning 1000 calories a day at the gym, you need to eat more food, comprende?

For numerous reasons, I’ve been toying with the idea of re-trying WW for awhile now. First and foremost is that it worked for me in the past, and I want to experiment with the program as it is now (something significantly different than my last go around — more on that later). Secondly, I am inspiried by a few people I know who have recently been very successful on WW. Third, I’m bored and ready to change it up.

The program has certainly evolved since 2002. You can no longer bank points. Plus, they’ve introduced the core eating plan. Kudos to them for that. Right now, I am counting points as a bit of an experiement and the numbers game is interesting — especially when you compare it to the plan Sparkpeople recommended for me. On WW, if I eat my daily alloted points, plus the 35 flex points a week, I am consuming approximately 1400 calories a day. Note that does not count 0 point vegetables. So hey, I can eat 1400 calories and a huge ass salad at lunch plus some broccoli with dinner. I am also allowed to swap out exercise points for additional food (and frankly I no idea how to count “bootcamp” in the WW activity tracker). These numbers (if I calorie count the veggies) put me at the high range of my suggested Spark people daily intake. Interesting, no?

I picked a challenging month for this experiment, as I am traveling 3 times in May. In fact we leave on Saturday for Florida. My mother is turning 60 on mother’s day and I wanted to be there for it. My plan is combat the festivities by journaling my food and upping my exercise.

Truth be told, I’m curious to see if I will be a Weight Watchers convert in a few months time. Right now I am a bit wary, but cautiously optimistic.

Categories: Bootcamp · Confidence · Exercise · Travel · Weight Watchers
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Poor Eight Bells

May 4, 2008 · 2 Comments

Last week I only got 12 hours of sleep. I was that busy with work. I managed to make it to bootcamp 2 out of 3 times though. There were a few nights where I was so tired I was fighting a headache and snapping at everyone in my way. Plus, my business partner is still MIA. I spent weeks being worried, then hurt, then angry, then apathetic about it – now I’m (pleasantly) relieved. My last project went so smoothly and it was because he wasn’t involved. I also made a lot more money, as I didn’t have to split it with him. I have been forming relationships with consultants and for this past project I outsourced his part. It saved me thousands of dollars. I have also put the ball in motion to dismantle that entity and create my own. I feel really good about it all. I also informed my day job that I plan to leave prior to 2009. Hopefully I actually can!

I’ll be busy straight through till June. This weekend we are going to Florida for my mother’s 60th birthday which also happens to fall on mother’s day. It was initially a surpise but my step father spilled the beans. I am so disappointed about that.

The following week Timmah is going to Chicago for work and I am taking the train to Providence, RI for my sister’s college graduation.

The last week in May week we are flying to Puerto Rico for an actual vacation. This will be our first vacation in months. The last Saturday in May we were supposed to attend a BBQ but my SIL reminded me it’s a good friends birthday. Now I have to figure out how to get out of the BBQ. My friend who planned actually planned it around our schedule too.

This is our last weekend home till the end of May, so we spent the whole weekend doing chores and running errands. We unearthed all the summer clothes, then did 16 loads of laundry. Tomorrow I begin another huge project. There’s bootcamp 3 days, and we fly to Florida on Saturday AM. I just stocked the house with healthy foods for the week too.

It seems the busier I am, the more I get done.

Categories: Confidence · Exercise · Healthy · Travel